Christmas has come and gone. A new year is about to begin. I’ll never forget the last year of my life. It’s painted in my memory. The loss of my dear Grandma Virginia in October broke my heart. A blessing to have had such a wonderful person in my life for so many years. She was and always will be a light in my life, guiding me to my place, whatever it may be… I’ve learned to appreciate hard times, because it makes the good times even better. Grandma wouldn’t want me to feel any other way. She would want me to rejoice. Her famous words were, keep smiling. 🙂
So good things continue, new things have started and I’m keeping busy, oh so busy. I am blessed and I pray each day that my life will be just that, my life, the one I am destined for, the one I work for, lifting myself up, taking time to smell the flowers, time to reflect, yet always pushing myself to do more. To do something. Believing that I CAN keeps me from veering off the path. The path of the dark road. That path is all too familiar. But trying something different, a new way of thinking, a new way of living… Los Angeles has brought me back to life.
I’ve grown to understand so many things. Been given so many chances to experience new places, new people, new food, new ways of living. I grow to love living in LA more everyday. The feeling of just being around other people as in love with creating as me, has such a positive impact on me. Opportunity is knocking on the door every day, I just have to open it. Put a little work into it. I feel at home here. It’s not perfect, it never will be. I miss my family every day, however, I feel I’m in the right place and it’s the right time for me.
I’ve been working on a screenplay with a friend I met out here. I don’t want to say too much, just that I’m passionate about it. It is a dramatic story of two girls being brought together by the power of the universe. About friendship, love, heartache and finding purpose. The meaning of life from the beginning until the end. It is a touching story, but I won’t say any more, you’ll have to wait and see it. We are half way through. The plan is to get it made, and by golly we’re going to. Wish us luck!
In November, I was cast in a short film called Betta Fish. I played a young mother who was neglecting her son due to heroin addiction. The director will be submitting it to various festivals. Academy eligible festivals! It is her passion piece, so I’m hoping it serves its purpose for her. She was wonderful. Touching to be the character I was. It brought up a lot of emotions for me, as it should. I loved it.
I submit to auditions daily. I do my best to stay in touch with my networks. You never know who you are going to meet when you go out for the day here. Producers, directors, agents, actors, etc. Where the day will take you is an exciting mystery. I’m on the hunt for an agent. It’s the best way, kind of the only way, to get cast in studio projects. So, as soon as I get my reel done… it’s on baby!
I’m climbing a mountain. Sometimes I get tired, so I stop and rest awhile. If I never make-it to the top, I’ll always know in my heart, that being where I am today and where I’m going in the future doesn’t have to be painful. It doesn’t have to be worthless. Those sad, dark feelings I’ve had for so long, are slowly melting away. Underneath the cloud that’s been frozen around me, is an authentic person, not a perfect person, but an authentic person. Me. That is the triumph of my soul.
