Hi there! You’ve found your way to my site. Not sure if you’ll find anything that suits your taste here, but I hope you do. I haven’t posted in quite awhile and as I look back on all my posts, I see a recurring theme: I’m always “finding myself”. I’m always learning and growing. There is a part of me that’s like “get over it already, no one wants to hear about your life”, but the other part of me (the confident one) says “wait, this is who I am. Why not let the world know it?” I am a dreamer, a believer, a do-er, and every day that I’m alive, I learn more about myself and my passions. So ya know, I don’t care if people like it or don’t like it. This is my blog and I like sharing my journey here.
So again I say, I’m learning about myself. About 5 months ago, after some traumatic experiences, I made the decision to turn my life around and get sober. I’ve struggled with drug and alcohol abuse since the ripe age of 14. Nothing has done more damage to me than my own addictions. Since getting sober (actually partaking in a program – aka. realizing I can’t do it alone) I’ve discovered a part of me that I thought was gone. After going through the difficulties of the first few months of sobriety, I have a new found sense of freedom. I don’t have to live in the darkness anymore. I’m gaining friendships I never thought I could, and the light inside of me is getting brighter. My dreams don’t seem so far out of reach, because I’m trusting that a higher power will lead me to the place that I’m supposed to be. I’m learning that I don’t have to control everything. It’s so freeing. I actually feel happy again. Not that fake “drunk” happy that I’d become so accustomed to, but real, true happiness. I don’t wake up with hangovers and regrets. I wake up with motivation and gratitude. I can’t say in words how good that feels.
I don’t think I need to share my whole story right now, but someday I will. I’d like to write a book about my journey… In the meantime, I’m enjoying the path I’m on and for the first time, I can truly say I’m finding myself. I’m working and developing new connections and getting more involved in making my career goals. The best part though, is that I’m letting go, and letting God. It will manifest itself exactly how it’s supposed to. I’m getting the confidence back that I thought had vanished forever. I know that if I just keep moving forward, I have no where to go but up. And I love that thought!
Happy days everyone! – much love from me. xoxo
